Personal Growth

I read a quote recently that says, “When you stop learning, you stop growing.” A struggle I have that I recently realized is that I’m always striving for “perfection”. To not make mistakes. To be the perfect person whether that be at work, in potential relationships, in friendships, etc. I’m terrified of anyone seeing faults in me. I’m terrified that if I make a mistake that makes me a worse person. But, really, aren’t mistakes how we learn? AND, let’s be serious, no one is ever going to be perfect.


I feel like I take criticism really well, but sometimes if it comes from specific people, I take it personally, and see it as a “defect” instead of an area where I can grow. I see it as “maybe this person won’t love me anymore, or like me anymore” instead of that’s something I need to work on. I try not to criticize others because I can always spin a criticism into a positive. Or somehow I see it as an opportunity to help someone else. I don’t see it as a fault, or a reason to not love someone. In fact, when I learn people’s faults, it usually makes me love them even more. So, why can’t I turn around and think the same thing about myself?

Why can’t I accept that mistakes don’t equal “you suck”. Mistakes don’t mean you can’t move on or move past them. Mistakes don’t mean you need a “fresh start” or a “clean slate”. Mistakes are an opportunity to learn and to grow. The problem is when we make the same mistakes over and over again. If we never learn from them, then we aren’t growing.


I’m constantly striving to grow. I love to reflect and to be introspective. I want to be a better person. Every day I try to be better. When I look back at my life a year ago, 3yrs ago, 5yrs ago, 10yrs ago. I have grown. I have learned. And it is something that we must accept that we will continue to make mistakes. We will continue to learn. And we will continue to grow. That is part of the life journey. We will continue to be challenged. To have to ask for forgiveness. And to practice forgiving others. We will learn how to let go and move on, over and over again. We will learn how to love, over and over again. So, I ask you, just like I ask of myself, to let go of “perfection” and simply strive to be the best version of yourself every day. To accept that you will make mistakes, and that when you do, to acknowledge them, learn from them, and move forward.

So, what was it that I learned this week? To stick to my guns. Probably will learn this one 100 more times in life in different scenarios, but to truly trust and own what I want and what I deserve and to not settle for anything less than that. That it’s ok to step away from something that isn’t what you want or deserve. To trust actions not words. :)

What did you learn this week in life?


Ab Fitness Challenge

Last year this time I challenged all of you to do 5min of abs a day! I created a TON of ab videos for you to follow along to, and I’m challenging you all to do at least 5min of abs a day from now until June 21st, the first day of summer! Why? Because who doesn’t want kickass abs for bikini season? I mean this girl does. And I want to rally all of you to join me, because I need to get my butt in gear and start doing abs every day! I’ve totally gotten off my game, and I want all of you to join me.

Who got their abs in this morning?!?! Share a pic of you doing your abs or of your abs using #showhowyouneon to win prizes from @osmonutrition @rokasports @coeursports @bobosoatbars !!!! Challenge ends June 4th! Ab workouts are up on my YouTube channel -->

I have some awesome giveaways too! Share your ab/ab workouts photos on Instagram using #ShowHowYouNeon for a chance to win prizes from Roka Sports, Bobo’s Oat Bars, Coeur Sports, and Osmo Nutrition! AND, I have two pairs of women’s size 10 Saucony Kinvaras to giveaway. I’m a 6.5 and when Saucony sends me shoes, they always throw in an extra pair to give away – size 10. So, ladies, if you are a size 10, and want to win a pair of never been worn Saucony Kinvaras then get to posting on Instagram with #ShowHowYouNeon :)


Check out the ab videos I made last year here, and start getting your 5min of abs in –>


I’m in the process of making new ones for you all! They are going to be 10min instead of 5. I mean we need to step up our game! So, keep an eye out for new videos coming your way.

Get after it, and share your ab photos to inspire others to get their abs in every day! #ShowHowYouNeon



St. George 70.3 Recovery Week

It’s amazing how tired one gets after a 70.3 and putting it all out there. The day after races, I’m always still full of energy. I swear caffeine just stays in my system for a long time. So, hiking Zion, I was still all jazzed up. But, then all week, this past week, I’ve been dragging. I’ve been sleeping 10-12hrs and then this past weekend, I took a 2hr nap on Saturday and a 2hr nap on Sunday, and was still sleeping like a baby at night. Like seriously, black out style sleep. I can’t tell you one dream I had, which is abnormal for me. I usually remember dreaming every single night. Nope, not this past week. I don’t have any major races lines up pronto, so I decided to not worry too much about it, and take as much rest as I could. So, this week has been kind of boring to be honest. The other thing, I like to do on these weeks is do things I don’t always have time to do. Fortunately, it was a fun week with lots of social things, so it lined up perfectly!

Monday – REST DAY and drive back from St. George. I’m pretty sure I got home, ate dinner, and crawled in bed at about 7pm.

Tuesday – Swam 2400yds. And then went to a friend’s to celebrate Cinco de Mayo! Carne asada burrito and margaritas was just what this girl wanted.



Wednesday – Unexpected rest day. I was just zonked. Book Club! I hadn’t been to book club in a few months, so it was fun to see all the girls. I hadn’t read the book, but who cares, I was there for the socializing. I mean we usually spend the first hour just chatting anyway.

Thursday – Swam 2800yds and then had all good intentions to go to dinner with friends, but was exhausted. Was asleep by 7:30pm. ha!

Friday – Again, an unexpected rest day. I was just beat. And got my hair did. 😛 LOVE going to the salon!


Saturday – 2hr ride – felt great to get out and enjoy the fresh air and sunshine. Followed that up with a 2hr nap. haha. Then went out with my friend Courtney who was in town visiting.




I had been wanting to wear these pleather pants out for awhile, so having Courtney in town was just the excuse I needed to rock them out!


After a mini photoshoot, we then felt like getting blow outs, so clearly we had to do a take 2 😛



We then met up with some friends, had a drink, and then went out for sushi!!! It felt good to just go out and hang! Courtney and I have known each other since we were 3. It’s always good to see her! We can pick up right where we left off, probably cause we still talk almost daily. 😛



Double Trouble. 😛

Sunday – 1hr 30min run – again, felt awesome! But, it really took it out of me. Had brunch with Courtney, and then when I got home, again, I took a 2hr nap. Ugh!

90min of ᗰIᑎᗪ ~ ᗰᗩᗪᑎEᔕᔕ today.  The words from this poem played through my head... It becomes an illness, the way you come and go. the way you love and hate. the way your mind fucks your heart and your heart fucks your mind. one day it will all make sense. one day you will get so used to the fact, that you are you and it’s okay to be a little mad. we all are. •r.m. drake - I swear @rmdrk knows exactly how to speak to the human soul. Not every day is easy. Our hearts and minds are constantly in battle in this life. Some times our decisions are easy, sometimes they are really rough. But one thing I've learned is that in time everything does make sense. And everything does work itself out. It's not always how you think it might or how you "want" it to, but it does. Let the universe and it's energy pull you. Don't force it. And trust in the journey. What's meant to be will find a way, but sometimes we have to let go first for it to truly find it's path.


Brunch at my fave…Naked Cafe, and then a stop by the beach. :)



And, of course, a Happy Mother’s Day to my beautiful and inspiring mother! She has taught me so much about life. How to be loving and kind and give until it hurts. I love her to pieces! She is my hero and my inspiration. This photo says it all about who she is as a mom. She is my biggest fan, and I am hers. Love you!


So, that was my week this week. Not a whole lot of training, but a lot of sleep and a lot of FUN! Eventually, the energy comes back, it always does, but damn, I’ve been tired. Cheers to a new week! My next race is in 3 weeks, the Rock n’ Roll San Diego Half Marathon.

Hope everyone had a great week!



St. George 70.3 Race Report


I just walked in the door after the drive back from St. George, and fortunately got to catch up with two of my friends who both raced, Payton and Keith. They both have done St. George 70.3 before, and to … Continue reading 

What I’ve Been Wearing

Spring is in the air! Although some days it feels like fall here in San Diego, and other days like summer! It’s been seriously weird weather. I know. I know. How can San Diego have weird weather? But, honestly, once you get used to “Sunny San Diego”, when it rains, you are like “woah”, which it rained a lot last week. And when it goes from 80 degrees one day to a high of 50 the next, you’re like, what happened to my 70 degree sunny days, every day? And, when it comes to fashion this can seriously make a difference in what you choose to wear each day. As for the weather, yea, not so extreme.


Jcrew Shirt // JBrand Jeans from StitchFix // Toms Wedges // Jcrew NecklaceIMG_0548

Sanduk flip flops // Jeans from StitchFix // Shirt from Jcrew // Necklace from street market in Thailand // Sweater from StitchFixIMG_0605

Top from StitchFix // Jeans from Free People // Shoes from Tobi IMG_0629

Toms wedges // Joe’s Jeans // StitchFix topIMG_0854

Toms wedges // StitchFix pants // StitchFix top // StitchFix braceletIMG_1070

StitchFix skirt // Nordstrom’s Tank // StitchFix necklaceIMG_1112

American Rag boots // Tilly’s jeans // StitchFix tank // Urban Outfitters leather jacketIMG_1354Ipanema sandals // Banana Republic Dress

Want to try StitchFix? Give it a shot here using my referral link –> here. I promise it’s worth it :)

I swear I’m going to post fashion posts more often! It’s on my priority list to get these going weekly! Because, let’s be honest. I LOVE fashion and I want it to be a staple in this blog, just as much as fitness is :)

I would love for you all to share some links to some of your favorite pieces you are seeing this spring/summer! Share away! :)



Life Lesson and Quotes of the Week

Do you ever feel like you have to be perfect? Are you ever afraid that if you aren’t perfect that people won’t like you? But, maybe your version of “perfect” is different from someone else’s version of “perfect”. Are you afraid of someone truly getting to know you? Are you afraid of letting people in? Letting people get close to you?


I swear as I’m getting to know someone new, a boss, a friend, a potential boyfriend, etc. I always start to get discouraged when things aren’t “perfect”. I get scared. Are they going to run? What if something bothers me about them? Should I say something? If I say something will it ruin the relationship we are building? Relationships of all kinds aren’t perfect, and one of the biggest lessons I’ve learned is to try to let go of “perfection”. No one is perfect. We all have insecurities. We all have moments of weakness. Moments of jealousy, sadness, anxiety, anger, frustration. But, we all also have moments of love, affection, admiration, inspiration, and happiness. We are all one big mess of emotions. We can’t “keep it together” all the time. We have to have people in our lives, bosses, friends, significant others, who we feel like we can let down our guard and be ourselves with. We all have qualities that will annoy someone out there, and people have qualities that will annoy us.


I think we all have to own our insecurities and annoyances and if someone can’t put up with them, just know that there are people who will. :) What are the annoying habits that you can tolerate? What are the annoying habits that are deal breakers? Can you handle someone who has jealous tendencies? Who’s extremely competitive? Who gets easily angered/frustrated? Can you handle someone who is a poor communicator? Can you handle someone who is needy? Can you handle someone who is super independent?


I’ve gone off on a tangent here, because what I really wanted to focus on this week is accepting our insecurities and moving on after insecure moments, and being OK with not having every moment of your life be “perfect”. For some reason, I care so much about making every single f’ing moment HAPPY AND FUN. I really struggle when things aren’t happy and fun and “perfect”. I can handle conflict totally fine, but then I want things to be fun and happy again, but then sometimes I get all caught up on how the conflict happened, and I blame myself, and think of what I could have done differently, and then I start getting really self-critical. It doesn’t matter if it’s at work, with friends, or a significant other. I easily carry blame. Which is silly. We all need to accept our “sucky” moments and move on. They happen. Just like bad workouts happen. Not every single workout can be amazing. Although, I always wish they were. haha.


I think what’s most important is to be as self-loving as possible, and when you are having those sucky moments, remember what is so awesome about yourself, and start to remove that cloud that is hanging over you. As long as there are waaaaaay more awesome, beautiful, “perfect” moments than sucky ones in your life, then we are all good. Life is a roller coaster, there is no finish line. We are all constantly a work in progress and no one really knows what the “f” they are doing. We are all just trying to take it one day at a time and be happy. :)



Hope everyone is having a good week!



Saucony Kinvara 6 Review

Ever since the Saucony Kinvara came out, I have been in love with it. This update to the shoe is no different. I have been racing in the Saucony Kinvara for 5 years now, and it is amazing. It is like running on clouds. It is light and cushiony. I LOVE cushion. It’s easy on the knees and ankles and feet. But, it’s not so cushiony that you feel like you are sinking. It’s the perfect bounce that puts a spring in your step.


I think what I love most about the update with the Saucony Kinvara 6 is the new lacing system. It keeps your foot comfortably snug, and where it laces keeps a perfect mid-foot fit. I really feel comfortable running hills in them, my heel isn’t sliding out the back, and I’m hitting that mid-foot strike every time. :) There’s something about the mesh and the fit of the shoe that is different this go around. I really like the mesh and progrid form. I feel like this shoe more than past versions really keeps my foot in place, and there isn’t much sliding around, which I occasionally got with the 5.


I really think the upgrades on this shoe are noticeably compared to other versions, and are worth it! Can’t wait to race in them this weekend!


Seriously bouncing on clouds like Mario bouncing on mushrooms 😛


1 Week til St. George 70.3

This is it! It’s been over a year since I last competed in a half iron distance race. And this coming weekend, I will be racing in my 12th half ironman. You would think after all this time, I would be relaxed, but I still get anxious. Not am I physically prepared, but just how is race day going to go? I get nervous. I try not to put any pressure on myself, but somehow I end up feeling pressure anyway. I think nerves are good though, it means I care. :) But, I do, do this for fun, but I like to do well. I like to perform at the best of my ability. With that, here is what this past week’s training looked like:


Tuesday – 3450yd swim and running Torrey Pines repeats – 3x5min, a little less than normal since my taper started. Plus, my legs were still pretty tired from the weekend.


Wednesday – Masters swim – 2600yds – felt really good. I was given some good feedback on my swim stroke, and so I put it into practice today, and it felt amazing. I really felt in my lats, which I always knew I was supposed to, but never did, and I was always ending up with shoulder and chest injuries. I was pulling too wide, and when I straightened out a bit more, not only did my pull become stronger, but my hips started to rotate more which allowed me to become more streamlined. It was definitely a positive change. There’s still more work to do, but super pumped to be feeling sore in my lats instead of my shoulders and chest. :)


Thursday – Cycling Torrey Pines repeats. Again, my legs were still pretty tired, but I successfully made it up all within 8:10 again! #winning


Friday – 2800yd swim in my new ROKA SIM Pro Shorts! And then an easy 36min run in the rain, which was super refreshing.

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Saturday – 3hr ride and a 30min run. Legs were still feeling a bit fatigued. I feel like my massage on Monday really brought out any fatigue my legs were feeling. They just felt kind of heavy all week.


Sunday – 1hr 20min run – I wasn’t expecting to run hard, but since I didn’t do any tempo/speed efforts this week, I threw in some speed, which felt really good! I don’t know why, but when I go hard, my body really loosens up and I feel better. It’s weird. Does that happen to anyone else? Followed this up with an hour easy ride.

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Total Time: 11hrs 28min

Total Distance: 112.8 miles

One week til go time! I think with some solid rest and a few shake out workouts this week, I’ll start to feel more like myself :) At least I hope! I’m definitely feeling a little intimidated by the St. George course, but they have made some course changes which has decreased the elevation gain on both the bike and run, so at least there’s a tad bit less climbing. 😛 Still going to be a challenge, and it’s looking like it’s going to be HOT!

Hope everyone had a good week!